This entry should have been written before 2014 ends but I procrastinated (yet again!!!!) on it that it has been sitting on my drafts for two weeks now. Haha! This is about reflecting on the year that went by. An entry on Rica's blog inspired me to do the same exercise. I contemplated on what transpired during the 365 days of the year 2014 and brought me to these two words: PATIENCE and GRATITUDE, which have been my daily mantra for almost everyday.
PATIENCE
People who are close to me knows how impatient I can get. Perhaps, it is something about physicians that we want things done ASAP at the exact right time, or else our patient's life is at stake. We cannot tolerate tardiness and any form of sluggishness. It manifests in the way we walk (we almost fly!), the way we speak (straight to the point, no flowery introductions), and in the way we deal with people. The biggest test of my patience this year was handling my RHU staff (haha! they might be reading this! I still love you girls!!), the nurses and the midwife who are almost always late when we go on duty to Tubaran. Tubaran is roughly around three (3) hours away from Marawi City without a regular transpo vehicle going there. A day before we go to the area (during Mondays), we already contact our suki vehicle owner to give us a ride. I instruct the staff that we meet as early as 6:00 AM (because I know they will arrive at around 7:00 AM anyway, Filipino time y'know) to gather the vaccines and everything we need for the week in Tubaran, and guess what? They usually arrive at around 8:00 AM or even later than that!!!!! And they make me wait almost always all the time!!! They make their BOSS wait!! (hahaha!) My friends, that happens almost EVERY WEEK of my entire tour of duty in Tubaran. What always irked me the most are those who would SMS me on the last minute that they will not come on duty due to selfish reasons they think are valid which renders them absent for the entire week. OMG. Staff problems. They really, really, really tested my patience. Nevertheless, I tried to be patient with them, I never shouted at anyone, I tried to make them understand the nature of our work and that we are not being punished by being assigned in a municipality forgotten by civilization but it is US who CHOSE to be DTTB and NDPs, and that we have no right to complain nor give our RHU clients lesser than our best.
Patience is a virtue that I have cultivated during my DTTB days~~patience with the staff, patience with the bumpy road, patience with some abusive drivers who think that they are gods because our life depends on them, patience with the kind of governance that we have, and patience with some impatient clients in the RHU who wants to be seen first without lining on the queue. My exercise on having a positive attitude helped me in a lot of ways to acquire patience in my daily life. Whenever I got stuck in a traffic in Marawi (traffic caused by irresponsible motor drivers and equally impatient vehicle drivers), I appease myself by thinking that it's ok, that there might be a few traffic knots somewhere but it will be over soon, that I need not complain about it. That eases my hot-headedness and impatience. Haha! Law of attraction, that is.
Patience is a virtue that I have cultivated during my DTTB days~~patience with the staff, patience with the bumpy road, patience with some abusive drivers who think that they are gods because our life depends on them, patience with the kind of governance that we have, and patience with some impatient clients in the RHU who wants to be seen first without lining on the queue. My exercise on having a positive attitude helped me in a lot of ways to acquire patience in my daily life. Whenever I got stuck in a traffic in Marawi (traffic caused by irresponsible motor drivers and equally impatient vehicle drivers), I appease myself by thinking that it's ok, that there might be a few traffic knots somewhere but it will be over soon, that I need not complain about it. That eases my hot-headedness and impatience. Haha! Law of attraction, that is.
GRATITUDE
I mentioned in my previous posts about me practicing the gratitude attitude. It is the gist of the book The Secret that I told you about, and it is the biggest lesson that I carried on for the entire year of 2014. One of the exercise in the book is holding a pebble in your hand every night before going to bed, close your eyes and think about what you are grateful for for that day. Instead of holding a pebble, I did express my gratitude every salah, that's five times everyday. That also made me realize that as Muslims, we are encouraged to pray 5 times a day not only to ask God a favor but to count our blessings and express our gratitude to The One who provided us with everything in our lives. Alhamdulillah. When you have that gratitude attitude, it would be very easy to turn a negative occurrence into a positive one. That is by looking on the other side of the situation and thanking God that the worse did not happen.
There were numerous instances during my DTTB days that I have escaped death. One afternoon when my staff and I were going home from Tubaran to Marawi, the FX we were riding was running at a moderate speed when we felt something underneath us went missing. The driver slowly went to a halt, we came out of the vehicle only to find one of our rear wheel was missing!! Apparently, the axle (the Meranao driver said that the "aksol" went off so I am assuming that he meant the axle. Haha!) went off that's why our rear wheel flew almost 10 feet away!! Thank God it happened in Bacolod Kalawi where there were many houses and a vulcanizing shop nearby so it was easy for us to get some help. A former Vice Mayor in the municipality also passed by at us on his way to the nearby masjid (it was already 6:00PM maghrib time) and went out of his way to help us. He called the experts on car mechanics and after an hour, our wheel got back on its place and off we went. The people who helped us never asked for any monetary compensation whatsoever, a simple and genuine "Salamat ow" was already enough. Alhamdulillah there were still people like them who are always ready to render a generous service without expecting anything in return. I have not lost hope in humanity after all. :) I will always think of that experience with a full gratitude in my heart. We arrived in Marawi very late in the evening already, but come to think of it, we could have NOT arrived at all! Apparently, most fatal vehicular crashes are due to broken axles just like what happened to that vehicle we were riding. It could have happened in the darkest areas in Madamba or Madalum where seeking help would be an utmost difficulty. Subhanallah. Things could have been worse. There are plenty of things that I am grateful for, and when I think about those things, everything that I don't have disappears from my mind. That's the power of gratitude.
There were numerous instances during my DTTB days that I have escaped death. One afternoon when my staff and I were going home from Tubaran to Marawi, the FX we were riding was running at a moderate speed when we felt something underneath us went missing. The driver slowly went to a halt, we came out of the vehicle only to find one of our rear wheel was missing!! Apparently, the axle (the Meranao driver said that the "aksol" went off so I am assuming that he meant the axle. Haha!) went off that's why our rear wheel flew almost 10 feet away!! Thank God it happened in Bacolod Kalawi where there were many houses and a vulcanizing shop nearby so it was easy for us to get some help. A former Vice Mayor in the municipality also passed by at us on his way to the nearby masjid (it was already 6:00PM maghrib time) and went out of his way to help us. He called the experts on car mechanics and after an hour, our wheel got back on its place and off we went. The people who helped us never asked for any monetary compensation whatsoever, a simple and genuine "Salamat ow" was already enough. Alhamdulillah there were still people like them who are always ready to render a generous service without expecting anything in return. I have not lost hope in humanity after all. :) I will always think of that experience with a full gratitude in my heart. We arrived in Marawi very late in the evening already, but come to think of it, we could have NOT arrived at all! Apparently, most fatal vehicular crashes are due to broken axles just like what happened to that vehicle we were riding. It could have happened in the darkest areas in Madamba or Madalum where seeking help would be an utmost difficulty. Subhanallah. Things could have been worse. There are plenty of things that I am grateful for, and when I think about those things, everything that I don't have disappears from my mind. That's the power of gratitude.
Patience and gratitude are the two virtues that I will live through my entire life, in shaa Allah, because I have felt its impact on me and the people surrounding me noticed it too. I am less grumpy now. Occasional na lang. Haha!
You, what are your words for 2014?
