Happy, Happy Birthday Engr. Karla Madrid! Thanks for being a great plurkmate and a multiplier. :) Cheers for a long and happy life! *hugs*

Heart Talk

Since it's the month of hearts, let's talk about this great force of nature called physical attraction. Classmate T and I have been discussing about this line that crosses between Crush and Love, whether it is a thin or a thick one. For me, there's a thick line that divides Crush and Love. In fact, there's the Like that goes in between. To make matters (worse) more complicated, we made three Classifications of Crush: Low Crush, Moderate Crush and Severe Crush. He gave me the task to assign criteria for every class, after which, we'd pass it to the World Crush Organization for validity. If there is such. Harhar!!

1. Let's start with the lowermost level called Crush. This is the first thing we learned about physical attraction, some discovered this feeling in high school, others in grade school while for early bloomers, they've got crushes since nursery days. This is purely based on the physical aspect of the person. He could be an actor, a classmate, a schoolmate, a sibling's friend, a friend's sibling, a neighbor, or a random person you constantly bump into the hallway or at the canteen. He's your crush because he's got tantalizing eyes, a prominent nose or a perfect set of teeth. As I have mentioned, there are three classifications of this kind of feeling:

a. Low Crush: This is the most benign form. You find him attractive but there's no kilig factor at all. He's there, you're here, you coexist but there's nothing more than that. You don't exert an effort to get noticed. You don't care if he has a girlfriend or none.

                 Sign: You tend to stare whenever he's not looking. Just like that.

b. Moderate Crush: Five notches above Low Crush, there's the presence of that kilig factor and you make an effort to get noticed. You create some silly excuses to talk to him.

                 Signs: Whenever he says "hi" and asks how you're doing, the two corners of lips are stretched all the way to your nape. You tend to stutter and mumble the wrong words.

c. Severe Crush: Aside from the kilig factor, you try to get to know him more than the basic infos. He's the person you tell your friends you have a crush on and forbid them to have the same feelings because "you found him first", so with all due respect to you, they're not supposed to get kilig in your presence. You start to snoop into his FB account, or worse, stalk him!!

                 Signs: Cold and clammy extremities and whenever he's around, your heart starts to flutter.

Crushes are crushes, you don't hope for anything more than that. Nothing serious especially among Low and Moderate Crushes. As for Severe Crush, there's a tenfold probability that it may progress to the next level which is.....

2. Like. When you "like" a person, there's already that connection. Good looks is not a necessity, in fact, the Crush phase may not be a prerequisite. You may like him because of some aspects of his personality more than the looks. This will eventually come into a crossroad when the spark either intensifies or fades. One proceeds to the road toward the third level which is the most complicated one, the overused and abused thing called Love; while the other road opens to the stable and lasting relationship called Friendship. And I mean the Friendship that does not go beyond the barrier. At this road, both of you might find another romantic spark from other people.

3. Love. Alright, it took me a long while staring into the space before I start collecting my thoughts on this. I am no authority but allow me to give it a shot. I may be talking fallacies, but before any violent reactions...just...shut up, okay? Hehe! So love, the most abused word on this planet. We say "I Love You" to almost everybody, but what is really love? (By the way, when I say "I Love You" to my girlfriends, I really mean that. Er, we're not talking about that kind of love anyway.) Perhaps it is the acceptance of the person as a whole---including his positives as well as his negatives. The dopamine rush that goes with Crush and Like (which apparently lasts no longer than 2 years) might have already evaporated, however you stick to the person. You accept every inch of him while pondering on his undesirable characteristics you can live with. By that, you do not try to change him for if there is love, you'll accept him for whatever he is or he'll change wholeheartedly for you. As for a fairytale believer that I am, Love is meant to last forever.

Advance Happy Hearts, People! Keep Believing in Love and Let's Paint the Town RED.

Doc Ikoy's FB status: "if you don't feel good right now...and your body hurtin’ you right now...you just need a shot of me...i'm just like medicine..." Kalami pud ani na status oi!

Myself and my other self speaking to each other: Ai 1: Hey, It's February! It's Love Month!! Ai 2: O ano ngayon?

Sometimes, It's Better To Just Shut Up

There are only two kinds of people I don't talk to : STRANGERS and PEOPLE I DON'T LIKE. If they are the only kinds of people left on earth *knocks on wood*, I'd rather talk to strangers. I can't stand being all hypocrite and pretentious when deep inside I know I'll regret talking to you. Don't ask me why I don't like you, you wouldn't wanna hear the specifics.

My friend, I wanna help you out in comprehending jokes but believe me, I'd rather discuss a certain pathophysiology than convince you that we were actually laughing because those were meant to be a JOKE!! Now you're complaining why you can't ride on with us. That's because you don't know the difference between a joke and a non-joke, same way with how you cannot differentiate delusion from an illusion. I tell you, you're suffering the former. Oooppss...Didn't I just tell you the truth?
I hope you're telling the truth. But I hope more that there are less gullible people who'd believe you.
True colors are starting to show off. And I can foresee the bigger picture. Good luck, dear!

Eye Opening

One reason why most people doesn't like entering the medical world is, ironically, the concept of DEATH. We're meant to save lives, yet when all means fail, everything will all boil down to death. In my two-week Internal Medicine rotation, I've seen and physically examined a lot of diseased people---infectious, malignant and terminating cases. I've helped in resuscitating patients (mostly with congestive heart failure), but to no avail, they've died right before our very eyes.

In a public hospital like GTLMH (city hospital), I've seen how harsh life is for the unfortunate ones. I've seen hopelessness in the eyes of a daughter when she heard that CT scanning costs around 7K for her father who suffered from stroke. I've seen how doctors resuscitated a 4-month old baby boy in the ER who was severely dehydrated. Another 1-year old boy was already dead on arrival due to malnutrition. I got to see a lot of pain---bot physical and emotional. I've seen how painful it is for a severely ill patient to have no relative watching over him and couldn't even afford his own medications.

A public hospital's ward is like a small version of hell, anyone who gets out alive are the lucky ones who are given a second chance to contemplate on their lives. For us, a day in the hospital is like a day in the battlefield. We fight against other people's diseases, against the possibilty of death, and against all those microbes flying in the air that could be targeting us as next victims.

After my last IM rotation, all my body defenses gave in. I got home feverish and chilling, I was having a terrible headache and a muscle-straining cough. I didn't bother to get my temperature 'coz, my god, think about how many armpits have my thermometer got inserted on!! I have a feeling that soaking it in a basin full of alcohol won't kill the microorganisms down. Harhar!!

Today's my first Pediatrics rotation at Mindanao Sanitarium Hospital. Our class are the first batch of junior clerks allowed to rotate in that private hospital. We're going to spend one week there and another one week at the city hospital before our next rotation. I'm not a great fan of Pedia because of the fact that children are so fragile one has to be very very patient around them plus in taking their history, the subjective part of the complaint is eliminated.

I'm loading on tons of paracetamol and multivitamins right now. Such a wrong time to get sick, I might not be allowed to enter the NICU (neonatal intensive care unit). Instead of me saying "Hello kids, be good to Ate..", they'd be like "Ate, you're contagious!". 

"Subpoena"

When I woke up earlier this evening from my three-hour nap, I saw this on the table:

My roomie wrote it. So I hurriedly get the envelope which was addressed to me.

(Forgive me for the photo is blurry, Mumbo is not in the right mood). OOOOHH, look where it's from? MALACANAN PALACE. I thought it would be something about FG Foundation, maybe a reminder of an article they're requiring us to write (which, I remember, this week's the deadline. I am so dead meat! I haven't thought of starting to write about MY life yet. What would I write that would inspire others? Damn!).

Only to find out, the magic envelope contains...ta da!

The first family on a seemingly wonderful vacaye... (notice the Palace's seal on top)

Aaahhhh...so greeting card pala itey. Isn't it very late na? Hehe.. Snail mail kasi. Nag-email na lang sana sila. Harhar! :) 

My precious, Ate Diane's PDI Youngblood article. http://services.inquirer.net/print/print.php?article_id=20100123-248921

...is so dead tired from 14 hours duty (12 hours lang dapat but we decided to extend for another 2 hours)... ano na lang kaya 'pag nag-36 hours duty ako? oh... kaya? kaya!! :D

The Jeep Fiasco

While we are flattered when we catch an attention from the opposite sex, please show it discreetly naman. We appreciate glances BUT we are disgusted when you stare at us like you are stripping us naked. And when we catch your eyes while looking at us, we expect you to turn your gaze away first. Otherwise, we would take it as if you want to say something to us. When we raise both eyebrows, we expect you to say something and not continually stare at us while a picture of sarcasm is painted on your face. Ano, magtititigan ba tayo? And when we ask you why you are staring at us, do not throw back the question: "Why, is it bad?" because the answer is definitely YES. Why? Because, for God's sake, you are a complete stranger to us and we do not know you!! Your action only shows what kind of person you are--- a disrespectful, imprudent bastard who lacks manners.

And reminder, if you really can't help but stare at us in the jeep, do not sit beside us. You are just making yourself too obvious, it would make us very uncomfortable and do not blame us when we get fuming mad at you and you hear words you swear you don't wanna hear. Although we are both of the same tribe, it doesn't mean you are given the permission to stare at us like that. In fact, you are supposed to be more respectful and protective of us. 

Whoever you are, we hope you learned your lesson. You deserve it.

Somehow, we appreciate the apologies. We know we are drool-worthy but  like we said, never do it to any woman because what you received from us tonight is the minimum, because you know what, you deserve some spanking!!

Starbucks Coffee Tumbler

ME WANTEY WANTEY!!!

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Starbucks Coffee 16-oz. Diana Tumbler Believe in the warmth inside us all. And with tumblers like these, we believe the coffee inside will stay nice and warm, too. Enjoy your favorite Starbucks brew in this tumbler with comfortable grip handle. Tumbler, 16-oz.

I need this, er, okay I WANT it. To make me feel less groggy in the morning at the hospital and to save me from buying Nescafe Latte 'coz it's mahal. I need a tumbler, but I don't want an ordinary one (like the plastic one I received during one of our Christmas kris kringles, my coffee would taste like plastic. Ulk!), I want a Starbucks Tumblerrrrrrrrrrr!!!!! And I like this Diana Tumbler because it's brown. ^__^  I can only wish..... :(

Follow Your Heart

While we were conducting a class review this afternoon for the supposed retake, as usual we were arguing over clashing statements by two different books. Very confusing for us which to take side: Jaen or Robbins? Since we couldn't settle it out, the group consensus is to follow our hearts. And then JE said: Mura po'g bright atong hearts. Everybody were silent for a while as some were seemed hit by that even though she doesn't mean anything. We all burst into laughters as we realized that some can actually relate into it. Oooppsie...

New Medicine Hymn: (to the tune of Manny Villar political ad jingle)

Jehan D. tagged me into this which she reposted from Hazel D.
Nakakuha ka na ba ng grado na mababa?
Nagsunog ka na ba ng kilay hanggang umaga?
Yan ang tanong namin, 65 nga ba ang passing?
Naisip mo na ba, bat nagaaral ka pa?
Todo effort tayo, pero walang nagbabago
at mas mabuti pa kung natutulog tayo?

Medicine ang tunay na mahirap,
Medicine ang tunay na puro pasakit
Medicine ang may kakayahan na malimutan sariling pangalan

Medicine lamang, ang magtatapos ng ating kasiyahan.
***whoever made this is a genius!!! Haha!

I think Tiara's down with virus (prolly got it from my flash disk borrowed by J). She's so slow. Lethargic. Hehe. Baby, don't do this to mommy...

:)

THIS IS MY FIRST POST FOR THIS YEAR:

2010--- when you double 10, it's 20; and when you half 20 it's 10. let's double everything up--hardwork, responsibility, dreams, joy, love, happiness. and, let's torn our miseries, guilt, hatred, bitterness into half. have a blessed year of the tiger people! roooaaaarrrrrr!!

Stomach Series deleted. Just sweeping away some dirts. ",)

Ano ngayon kapag naka-Limited Profile ka sa Facebook? Ano'ng part ng profile mo ang pwede nilang makita?

sitting on the porch on a cold, windy frAiday...

          Yes, it is freaking cold here in MSU. The fog barely cleared up this morning and I am lured to stay at the porch to warm myself after the sun peeked behind the clouds. I have my back turned at the sun for fear of, um, getting sunburn. Heehee. I only need a few minutes under it to activate my Vitamin D enzymes underneath my skin, I can see those goosebumps as the warm rays hit my pale-almost-cyanotic skin. And I am wearing layers of sweatshirts and jackets. I love this, when I can go by the day without showering and still smells great. :) I am eating plenty of choclates for two days in a row, I feel drunken by it. I am eating all kinds of sweets because my aunt, who just came from another country after many years of staying there, came home and I slept over at her place the other night. She secretly whipped these dark choc'lates inside my bag and told me not to tell anyone 'coz she has limited stocks. LOL. Okay, so I'm her favorite. :) I devour them one bar after another and I can't seem to stop, and I feel like a princess---eating bars of chocolates while warming herself under the sun, sitting on a chair while leafing a book. :)) I shouldn't be sitting on a chair, I should be lying on a couch but we don't have couch here in our porch. We only have a plastic chair. So whatever, I still feel princess-y. 

***

          While I was at my aunt's place the other night, my sister and some cousins of mine ransacked her make-up kit and experimented on our faces. And here's the result:

 me, babydoll, amanee and nasbia (at the back)

no one can deny me wearing red lipstick. so in for the holidays, eh? :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO MY CHRISTIAN FRIENDS!

***
          Two nights ago, I slept over at Ate Diane's place. My "older sister". I always find time to be with her every break because she's the only person who exactly knows what to say when I pour my heart out. :) I don't call her my bestfriend because she's more of a sister to me. The older sister I never had, but I have her and I'm so grateful for that. *winks* I met Arianna too, her chic lappy! And of course Sing-sing, her naughty cat, who grew up faster. We haven't took a picture together because we were busy chatting and interneting. Hehe. But I took one while she's using Arianna:

Babypink and Arianna at our little sister Maru's room. :)

She knows something about me right now that I'd never tell anybody. Heehee. :) Love you, my precious!

***

        I'd be off to CDO to meet up with friends and hopefully spend the New Year there. I always spend it with my family, but this time I want it different. I'd be staying with my Same, Mabi and I'm hoping to meet the rest of my BGM (B. Girls of Mendeleev) friends.

Advance Happy New Year Everyone!

******

*dug this from my phone inbox.

I LOVE YOU

A warning.

An apology.

An interruption.

A plea for attention.

An objection.

An excuse.

A justification.

A reminder.

A trap.

A blessing.

A disguise.

A vacuum.

A revelation.

A way of saying nothing.

A way of summarizing everything.

A surrender.

An opening.

An end.

***

Falling in-love makes one vulnerable and vulnerability leads to hurting. Who likes to get hurt? Definitely not me.

Hence....

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It's DECEMBER already!! The last month for the Year 2009, let's have a blast people!
Today I'm saying hello to ONCOLOGY. *dies*
First-day-of-the-month realization: WHY SETTLE FOR DEPRESSION WHEN THERE IS MORE TO LIFE?! Cheerios!

i like it when people realize their mistakes and wish they listened to me. i'm gloating! :)) [bad cheetah.]