Showing posts with label that lurve thingy?. Show all posts
Showing posts with label that lurve thingy?. Show all posts

September 17, 2013

Get that sickly bone working, my love! C'mon!


Knowing that your better-half is down with a potentially fatal disease and you cannot do anything to alleviate his discomfort is such a downer. Really. This long-distance relationship is taking its toll on both of us. If I could only turn back the hands of time, I shouldn't have applied for the First Gentleman Foundation to get that scholarship so I won't get into the Doctors to the Barrios Program so I can take care of my love. Oh Regrets, get off my thoughts.

Ever since I got married and having acquainted to the obligations of a wife under the Islamic law, my life plans were shaken. Instead of pursuing residency right after the DTTB Program, I have decided to join my husband in his Post so we can start a family and stay there until he gets recalled back in 2016 . Diplomats live a rather flexible life and being married to one means I need to adjust my selfish life priorities and go with the pliability. A two-year long distance relationship is too much to take. We're married for six months now but two-thirds of the whole time was spent on BBM (blackberry messenger) and Wechat. Well, thanks to the power of technology for keeping us in touch every single day despite the distance and the difference in time. However, physical presence is still A MUST for every married couple. No amount of BBM-ing or Wechat-ing can be compared to physical presence. If we are physically together, we can just sit and sip our coffee in silence, do our things individually but still feeling a sense of tranquility. We need to be together to fulfill our obligations to one another. That's the very essence of our marriage---to be together through thick and thin, in sickness and in health. And sadly, I breached it. Being far away from him especially now that he's sick gradually kills me. I take commitments seriously so when I committed myself to the DTTB Program, I stick to it even though I thought of leaving it a hundred times to fly to Nigeria. It appears to him as if I chose my work over him, but the truth is, I cannot leave a commitment just like that. The same feeling of loyalty and faithfulness I have for him. I tell him over and over again that immediately after the DTTB Program, I am all his. 100% his. InshaaAllah. 

God knows how much I terribly miss Jabar. This post can get mushy but he's the answer to my prayers.  He's the perfect person to tone down the hidden harshness of my character and at the same time he brings out the best in me. We share the same values but with contrasting educational background (he's a CPA and I'm a physician), our minds are wired differently. I love that I learn a lot from him, especially on the business side which I totally lack knowledge of, in the same way that he learns a lot from me. I miss how he delivers his tambay jokes which cracks me up almost instantly. I don't know if its just the hormones during the first phase of marriage but Jab never bored me out. I can talk to him all day and night without a dull moment. Or am I just like that to everybody? Haha! 

Breakfast at Grand Men Seng Hotel, Davao City. March 2013.


Oh c'mon Love, stretch your spine and shove those malaria parasites away!!!! Get here ASAP so I can boast my newly-learned cooking skills and we can do endless foodtrips!!!

May 7, 2013

On another news, I miss my person. :)

Caught unaware at BenCab.

It's been two weeks since he left. I cannot believe that my first ever relationship would be a long distance one. An enormous test of strength and character. We need to keep ourselves busy to become oblivious of the passing of time. So long, my love. Be back soon. :)






May 1, 2013

The Best Half

Hello there. Yes, I'm still here constantly thinking of blogging and after countless attempts, I finally mustered the courage to gather photos and hit the keyboards. Now don't blame me if this post consumes your time because I shall post a lot of photos to make up for my absence----uncollaged photos, these are. Heehee. Well, nothing philosophical, just some what's-going-on-with-my-life entry. My relationship with this blog is like an old friend with whom you kind of lost in touch with but you perpetually think how they've been but preoccupation with current important stuff eats your time and then you accidentally bump into each other somewhere down the road and go back to being good friends again as if time never passed. :)

So, since this entry is mainly about how my life has been and to give a sequel to my recent post about my wedding frets, well....here. Yes, I got married last March 9!! *insert kilig smile here* One of the most enormous mystery of my life is now revealed. 

Officially misis. (c) Doc Saino

With our families. (c) Val Candole
Back in my singlehood days, the man I'm going to marry has always been a mystery I never knew when to happen. Never did I expect that he will come around the time I was reviewing for the board exam, the most unlikely time to flirt around. Haha! It was a typical Meranao parental set-up, but lucky us, we find each other suitable for a spouse. Well, primarily I didn't think of it THAT way when I met him. We have a common first cousin (we are also blood related, his father is my third degree cousin on my Mom's side) who introduced us. But apparently, prior to our personal introduction, he met up with my parents first to subtly ask if he can  visit me. They (him and my cousin) visited me at the review center after a long negotiation, I was so much under pressure of passing the boards I need not anyone to bother me. But I give in to my cousin's plea, I sure didn't know he's with him. We had a relatively good conversation over dinner that our first meeting didn't end there. I learned that he's a CPA who works with the Philippine Embassy in Abuja, Nigeria as a finance officer. Since he was on a vacation and was scheduled to go back to work few days after our meeting, he frequented his visits without my cousin. No resistance came from me thinking that he's leaving soon and I must admit I enjoyed his company. I thought his last visit would be the last and when he leaves, no further communication will occur. I was wrong. Even we were continents apart, his overseas phone calls became persistent and regular until I find myself expecting it almost always. I kind of get used to it, and while I was driving myself crazy studying for the biggest exam of my life, he acted as a shock absorber listening to my rants and, in his own little ways, comforted me. While those things were happening, his parents were also communicating with my parents about the two of us getting married. It took time before everything was settled and I had to ask myself a hundred times if I want it too. Our parents obviously do. I prayed hard and asked for signs, and when I felt that my questions were answered, I wholeheartedly accepted the marriage. Choz. Andami ko pang chorva e 'noh? Obvious naman na like ko din siya. *winks*

In retrospect, I love our lovestory. Yes, I'm a fan of my very own lovestory. Haha! We are not boyfriends/girlfriends, but we allowed fate to work everything for us. There wasn't too much obstacles along the way making our story run smoothly. Everything I was praying for were answered. Alhamdulillah.

After the wedding, we had to make the most of our time together because he would be leaving again for Nigeria. We traveled around Mindanao from Marawi City (our home base) to Cagayan de Oro, Bukidnon, Davao City, Cotabato City and back to Marawi. During those travels, we slowly revealed the quirky and fun sides of each other. In him, I found the best travel buddy! :) 

Sipping his durian frappe in a non-beachy outfit under the sun at Samal Island, Davao City. 



Who goes to Davao without devouring durian, huh? Good thing we both love durian!! 


A month later, we fled to Manila to work on some of his papers at DFA main office while I also took a leave from my work to be with him. During one mundane afternoon, he suddenly thought of going to Baguio, telling me that he's been living in Manila most of his life but never had a chance to go the Summer Capital of the Philippines. As wanderlusts that we both are, we took the bus and off we go relying only on the internet for directions.

Overlooking the City of Pines at the terrace of SM Baguio.
The first name of the hotel that appeared on the search engine was Casa Vallejo which is located at the Upper Session Road. We checked in without thinking twice and off we walked down to main Session Road until we reached Burnham Park. I'm the kind of traveler who keeps an itinerary either in writing or in mind, while hubby goes for absolute spontaneity. We walked around wherever our feet brought us. 

Burnham River at night. 

Night market. 

We woke up to this chilly environment. I felt like I was in a non-tropical country. 


Waiting for our breakfast at Hill Station.

Energizing ourselves in preparation for a loooong day ahead.
Typical Baguio sights.




Our first stop was the Strawberry Farm at La Trinidad, Benguet. We were both excited to hand-pick strawberries that we did it like it was not our first time. Haha! 





From there, we went straight to Camp John Hays for lunch and did some window shopping. 




Since it was his first time in Baguio, it's a must for him to see Mine's view Park. 




Another must-have is a photo with the Igorot natives at Baguio Botanical Garden. Look at the oldies so cute with their peace-out hand sign!! :) 



Per Ate Diane's suggestion, we visited Tam-awan Village which reflects the culture of the different northern tribes. We had a lot of fun taking each other's photos. Haha! 





A typical Kalinga hut.


From the native Tam-awan Village, we drove to another mountain called Tuba in Benguet to visit BenCab Museum which houses modern sculptures and paintings. 




Our eyes feasted to these beautiful works of art contemplating on how they were made and the emotions of the artists who did them. 




"WAG MO DAMDAMIN ANG MGA BAGAY DAHIL ANG MGA BAGAY WALANG DAMDAMIN". 

Terracota.


I'm sorry I have a bad camera. :( 




At the basement of BenCab is a cozy restaurant called Cafe Sabel....


...which opens to this magnificent view! The most romantic place EVER.


What we loved about Cafe Sabel is that their food were purely 100% organic. They're preparing their herbs from a nearby garden that they maintain. We had minty pineapple frappe and mouth-watering basil pesto pasta which were both absolutely delicious! :)



From BenCab, we hurried to the bus station and went back to Manila. It was just a quick but worthwhile trip. We visited most of the must-see places in a day and a night. Greeaaaat!!! Looking forward to a lot more travel sprees with you, Jab! :) Inshaa Allah. 

Alhamdulillah for all the blessings that God has given me. I am truly grateful beyond words. Ya Allah, thank you for my family, my friends, my work, the travel opportunity with my husband, and thank you for bringing Jabar in my life. Please shower us with more of Your blessings as we walk Your earth worshipping You alone. With him, there's nothing I can ask for (handsome and intelligent children na lang. haha!). 

As of speaking time, he's now back in Abuja immersing with his work while I also do the same to shun missing his presence. I can only pray for God to give us strength to stand the distance and courage to face our future together. In God's perfect time, we will be together again. :) For now, BBM and Facebook na lang muna kami. Hehe. 


December 7, 2012

I have come into an expected pause in my life but I enjoy living in heart-shaped bubbles that don't seem to rupture. I have been smiling from ear to ear every single day for the past few months and finally, yes finally, my life is having a bit of color now. <3 <3 <3 
There are forms of happiness worth keeping than sharing. 

P.S.
I so miss the normalcy of blogging and of writing and of being a critic. But when you're mind is fogged with incomprehensible colors, words fade away just like that. They only leave footprints of that peculiar feeling. 

September 19, 2012

Found


"I guess, when The One finds you, there's nothing, not even a single atom in you that revolts against it." 

That was what I wrote in my private diary a month ago. I still believe so because I felt it. We can only pray. <3 

August 11, 2012

Hello there. How have you been?

I know I have quite a lot of explaining to do for my hiatus which will hopefully come to an end. So much has transpired during the whole time I was away, too bad my brain can't process everything all at the same time. Please know that I am so much looking forward to sharing all the great and not-so-great things that happened. :)

Happy and in-love,

A.

March 27, 2012

The Untold. :)

this whole idea of you and me is but a surreal tragedy.
i shall forever keep you in my secret malady.
never to unfold.
you'd forever be The Untold.

February 25, 2012


Rumors about my crush couldn't be true or my world will begin to crumble. Therefore, I must face this with a bias-free and an open mind. An investigation must commence. 

Seriously? Haha. 

February 20, 2012

A Hearty Prayer

I swear I do not know how to start the forewords for this entry because I feel so shy about actually putting this into writing. Fine. So, I wrote a letter to God. These are the words that were sitting silently in my head but were uttered with difficulty by the tongue. Since He is Omnipotent, the All-Seer, the All-Hearing, I know He recognizes my unsaid prayers. This was inspired by the people who painted the town red during Valentines Day. Thanks to them, I got reminded how lurve has been elusive to someone like me. I hate musing about the state of my hearty flakes. I am so contented with this extended adolescence and having plain crushes, but I keep a secret prayer which is to be divulged now. Oh well. Here goes. 

Dear God,

I pray that You guide my heart to the right person, the one who will be courageous enough to wall off this coldness that envelopes me, the one who will help me strengthen my faith in You, the one who will fill the puzzle of my being, the one with whom I will share my happiness and all the success I will have to acquire while we wander in Your beautiful earth. 

Please guide me to the person who will cherish, love, honor and respect my parents and my siblings as much or even more than what he shows me. The one who will value and love me unconditionally. Inshaa Allah, we will bring out the best in each other.  Ya Allah, please guide my heart to the person who will never do anything that will break my heart and that of my parents'. 

Ya Allah, please spare me from loving someone who will only bring misery to me and my family. I pray that whoever You choose to be my future better-half would be someone that my parents and I also desire. If this person will only bring me misery then please take back all my feelings. I'd rather live with a stale heart than cause havoc in my most prized possession---my family. 

However, if this person will prove that he is worth his salt then allow our fate to meet at the soonest appointed time. I know You've been designing all of these in perfect manner for the past 26 years of my life, Inshaa Allah this person will emerge in the perfect moment perhaps near to what I have imagined. Only You can fashion a love so excellently that can be hindered by no one. Hence, I leave it all up to Your care. 

Please guide our hearts as all of these shall become futile without Your Holy Guidance. 
In the Name of Allah, the Most Merciful, the Most Beneficent. 
Ameen. 




You, what's your prayer? :)

October 1, 2011


Note to self:


something beyond reality for an anhedonic person called ME.