Sometimes, It's Better To Just Shut Up

There are only two kinds of people I don't talk to : STRANGERS and PEOPLE I DON'T LIKE. If they are the only kinds of people left on earth *knocks on wood*, I'd rather talk to strangers. I can't stand being all hypocrite and pretentious when deep inside I know I'll regret talking to you. Don't ask me why I don't like you, you wouldn't wanna hear the specifics.

My friend, I wanna help you out in comprehending jokes but believe me, I'd rather discuss a certain pathophysiology than convince you that we were actually laughing because those were meant to be a JOKE!! Now you're complaining why you can't ride on with us. That's because you don't know the difference between a joke and a non-joke, same way with how you cannot differentiate delusion from an illusion. I tell you, you're suffering the former. Oooppss...Didn't I just tell you the truth?
I hope you're telling the truth. But I hope more that there are less gullible people who'd believe you.
True colors are starting to show off. And I can foresee the bigger picture. Good luck, dear!

Eye Opening

One reason why most people doesn't like entering the medical world is, ironically, the concept of DEATH. We're meant to save lives, yet when all means fail, everything will all boil down to death. In my two-week Internal Medicine rotation, I've seen and physically examined a lot of diseased people---infectious, malignant and terminating cases. I've helped in resuscitating patients (mostly with congestive heart failure), but to no avail, they've died right before our very eyes.

In a public hospital like GTLMH (city hospital), I've seen how harsh life is for the unfortunate ones. I've seen hopelessness in the eyes of a daughter when she heard that CT scanning costs around 7K for her father who suffered from stroke. I've seen how doctors resuscitated a 4-month old baby boy in the ER who was severely dehydrated. Another 1-year old boy was already dead on arrival due to malnutrition. I got to see a lot of pain---bot physical and emotional. I've seen how painful it is for a severely ill patient to have no relative watching over him and couldn't even afford his own medications.

A public hospital's ward is like a small version of hell, anyone who gets out alive are the lucky ones who are given a second chance to contemplate on their lives. For us, a day in the hospital is like a day in the battlefield. We fight against other people's diseases, against the possibilty of death, and against all those microbes flying in the air that could be targeting us as next victims.

After my last IM rotation, all my body defenses gave in. I got home feverish and chilling, I was having a terrible headache and a muscle-straining cough. I didn't bother to get my temperature 'coz, my god, think about how many armpits have my thermometer got inserted on!! I have a feeling that soaking it in a basin full of alcohol won't kill the microorganisms down. Harhar!!

Today's my first Pediatrics rotation at Mindanao Sanitarium Hospital. Our class are the first batch of junior clerks allowed to rotate in that private hospital. We're going to spend one week there and another one week at the city hospital before our next rotation. I'm not a great fan of Pedia because of the fact that children are so fragile one has to be very very patient around them plus in taking their history, the subjective part of the complaint is eliminated.

I'm loading on tons of paracetamol and multivitamins right now. Such a wrong time to get sick, I might not be allowed to enter the NICU (neonatal intensive care unit). Instead of me saying "Hello kids, be good to Ate..", they'd be like "Ate, you're contagious!". 

"Subpoena"

When I woke up earlier this evening from my three-hour nap, I saw this on the table:

My roomie wrote it. So I hurriedly get the envelope which was addressed to me.

(Forgive me for the photo is blurry, Mumbo is not in the right mood). OOOOHH, look where it's from? MALACANAN PALACE. I thought it would be something about FG Foundation, maybe a reminder of an article they're requiring us to write (which, I remember, this week's the deadline. I am so dead meat! I haven't thought of starting to write about MY life yet. What would I write that would inspire others? Damn!).

Only to find out, the magic envelope contains...ta da!

The first family on a seemingly wonderful vacaye... (notice the Palace's seal on top)

Aaahhhh...so greeting card pala itey. Isn't it very late na? Hehe.. Snail mail kasi. Nag-email na lang sana sila. Harhar! :) 

My precious, Ate Diane's PDI Youngblood article. http://services.inquirer.net/print/print.php?article_id=20100123-248921

...is so dead tired from 14 hours duty (12 hours lang dapat but we decided to extend for another 2 hours)... ano na lang kaya 'pag nag-36 hours duty ako? oh... kaya? kaya!! :D

The Jeep Fiasco

While we are flattered when we catch an attention from the opposite sex, please show it discreetly naman. We appreciate glances BUT we are disgusted when you stare at us like you are stripping us naked. And when we catch your eyes while looking at us, we expect you to turn your gaze away first. Otherwise, we would take it as if you want to say something to us. When we raise both eyebrows, we expect you to say something and not continually stare at us while a picture of sarcasm is painted on your face. Ano, magtititigan ba tayo? And when we ask you why you are staring at us, do not throw back the question: "Why, is it bad?" because the answer is definitely YES. Why? Because, for God's sake, you are a complete stranger to us and we do not know you!! Your action only shows what kind of person you are--- a disrespectful, imprudent bastard who lacks manners.

And reminder, if you really can't help but stare at us in the jeep, do not sit beside us. You are just making yourself too obvious, it would make us very uncomfortable and do not blame us when we get fuming mad at you and you hear words you swear you don't wanna hear. Although we are both of the same tribe, it doesn't mean you are given the permission to stare at us like that. In fact, you are supposed to be more respectful and protective of us. 

Whoever you are, we hope you learned your lesson. You deserve it.

Somehow, we appreciate the apologies. We know we are drool-worthy but  like we said, never do it to any woman because what you received from us tonight is the minimum, because you know what, you deserve some spanking!!

Starbucks Coffee Tumbler

ME WANTEY WANTEY!!!

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Starbucks Coffee 16-oz. Diana Tumbler Believe in the warmth inside us all. And with tumblers like these, we believe the coffee inside will stay nice and warm, too. Enjoy your favorite Starbucks brew in this tumbler with comfortable grip handle. Tumbler, 16-oz.

I need this, er, okay I WANT it. To make me feel less groggy in the morning at the hospital and to save me from buying Nescafe Latte 'coz it's mahal. I need a tumbler, but I don't want an ordinary one (like the plastic one I received during one of our Christmas kris kringles, my coffee would taste like plastic. Ulk!), I want a Starbucks Tumblerrrrrrrrrrr!!!!! And I like this Diana Tumbler because it's brown. ^__^  I can only wish..... :(

Follow Your Heart

While we were conducting a class review this afternoon for the supposed retake, as usual we were arguing over clashing statements by two different books. Very confusing for us which to take side: Jaen or Robbins? Since we couldn't settle it out, the group consensus is to follow our hearts. And then JE said: Mura po'g bright atong hearts. Everybody were silent for a while as some were seemed hit by that even though she doesn't mean anything. We all burst into laughters as we realized that some can actually relate into it. Oooppsie...

New Medicine Hymn: (to the tune of Manny Villar political ad jingle)

Jehan D. tagged me into this which she reposted from Hazel D.
Nakakuha ka na ba ng grado na mababa?
Nagsunog ka na ba ng kilay hanggang umaga?
Yan ang tanong namin, 65 nga ba ang passing?
Naisip mo na ba, bat nagaaral ka pa?
Todo effort tayo, pero walang nagbabago
at mas mabuti pa kung natutulog tayo?

Medicine ang tunay na mahirap,
Medicine ang tunay na puro pasakit
Medicine ang may kakayahan na malimutan sariling pangalan

Medicine lamang, ang magtatapos ng ating kasiyahan.
***whoever made this is a genius!!! Haha!

I think Tiara's down with virus (prolly got it from my flash disk borrowed by J). She's so slow. Lethargic. Hehe. Baby, don't do this to mommy...

:)

THIS IS MY FIRST POST FOR THIS YEAR:

2010--- when you double 10, it's 20; and when you half 20 it's 10. let's double everything up--hardwork, responsibility, dreams, joy, love, happiness. and, let's torn our miseries, guilt, hatred, bitterness into half. have a blessed year of the tiger people! roooaaaarrrrrr!!

Stomach Series deleted. Just sweeping away some dirts. ",)

Ano ngayon kapag naka-Limited Profile ka sa Facebook? Ano'ng part ng profile mo ang pwede nilang makita?

sitting on the porch on a cold, windy frAiday...

          Yes, it is freaking cold here in MSU. The fog barely cleared up this morning and I am lured to stay at the porch to warm myself after the sun peeked behind the clouds. I have my back turned at the sun for fear of, um, getting sunburn. Heehee. I only need a few minutes under it to activate my Vitamin D enzymes underneath my skin, I can see those goosebumps as the warm rays hit my pale-almost-cyanotic skin. And I am wearing layers of sweatshirts and jackets. I love this, when I can go by the day without showering and still smells great. :) I am eating plenty of choclates for two days in a row, I feel drunken by it. I am eating all kinds of sweets because my aunt, who just came from another country after many years of staying there, came home and I slept over at her place the other night. She secretly whipped these dark choc'lates inside my bag and told me not to tell anyone 'coz she has limited stocks. LOL. Okay, so I'm her favorite. :) I devour them one bar after another and I can't seem to stop, and I feel like a princess---eating bars of chocolates while warming herself under the sun, sitting on a chair while leafing a book. :)) I shouldn't be sitting on a chair, I should be lying on a couch but we don't have couch here in our porch. We only have a plastic chair. So whatever, I still feel princess-y. 

***

          While I was at my aunt's place the other night, my sister and some cousins of mine ransacked her make-up kit and experimented on our faces. And here's the result:

 me, babydoll, amanee and nasbia (at the back)

no one can deny me wearing red lipstick. so in for the holidays, eh? :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO MY CHRISTIAN FRIENDS!

***
          Two nights ago, I slept over at Ate Diane's place. My "older sister". I always find time to be with her every break because she's the only person who exactly knows what to say when I pour my heart out. :) I don't call her my bestfriend because she's more of a sister to me. The older sister I never had, but I have her and I'm so grateful for that. *winks* I met Arianna too, her chic lappy! And of course Sing-sing, her naughty cat, who grew up faster. We haven't took a picture together because we were busy chatting and interneting. Hehe. But I took one while she's using Arianna:

Babypink and Arianna at our little sister Maru's room. :)

She knows something about me right now that I'd never tell anybody. Heehee. :) Love you, my precious!

***

        I'd be off to CDO to meet up with friends and hopefully spend the New Year there. I always spend it with my family, but this time I want it different. I'd be staying with my Same, Mabi and I'm hoping to meet the rest of my BGM (B. Girls of Mendeleev) friends.

Advance Happy New Year Everyone!

******

*dug this from my phone inbox.

I LOVE YOU

A warning.

An apology.

An interruption.

A plea for attention.

An objection.

An excuse.

A justification.

A reminder.

A trap.

A blessing.

A disguise.

A vacuum.

A revelation.

A way of saying nothing.

A way of summarizing everything.

A surrender.

An opening.

An end.

***

Falling in-love makes one vulnerable and vulnerability leads to hurting. Who likes to get hurt? Definitely not me.

Hence....

***
It's DECEMBER already!! The last month for the Year 2009, let's have a blast people!
Today I'm saying hello to ONCOLOGY. *dies*
First-day-of-the-month realization: WHY SETTLE FOR DEPRESSION WHEN THERE IS MORE TO LIFE?! Cheerios!

i like it when people realize their mistakes and wish they listened to me. i'm gloating! :)) [bad cheetah.]

i can't plurk, i can't facebook, so here. just got home from a medical mission at Digkilaan. dude, anlayo pala! we were like, Iligan CITY pa ba 'to?

wake me up when october ends.

I know the title should be "September" but it's already October, so what? *giggles* First semester of A.Y. 2009-2010 is officially over and sembreak has already started but I am stuck here in Iligan. I need to stay for the enrolment (which is today) and to finish some works for our college publication. Actually, I may go home tomorrow but we have this Medical Mission this Saturday so I decided to stay to spare me from the nauseating travel to and fro Marawi-Iligan. So what have I been doing? I started on "A Map of the World" and I also started watching Glee! I think Cory Monteith (photo on the left) is hot and he makes me stay tuned to the show. I have been spending a lot this week because I have been tolerating my cravings so I tend to eat out with friends and housemates. Last night, Gans introduced me to this new place here, it's called Delecta. They're known for their bakeshop but the cafe is kinda new. I was with Gans and Ate Ayin last night, the three of us rarely go out together due to differences in schedule especially now that Ate Ayin is a senior clerk so she rarely has time at home, er, boarding house.

I like the rattan chairs, the white-painted wall and the lights. Very minimalist and simple, yet comfy and elegant.

This is called Java Blenz (yeah, minus the D). It's very sweet yet very tasty, you can separate the taste of coffee and chocolate in your tongue.

***
I am officially enrolled today for the second semester, and right now, I am chatting with my sister via FB and she's telling me about her newfound crush who IS my crush too!! She even suggested that I might as well develop an eye for crush's brother who, apparently, has a thing for me. Oh well, I'm not kilig. *rolls eyes*  Sisterette, back off. I am your Ate and that says it all. Haha! :)

multiple choice

what's loathsome about multiple choice type of exam is you're faced with limited choices. you argue with what is presented and thinks that there is a better answer. CHOOSE THE BEST ANSWER--the instruction says. but what if there are two best answers? or none of the above is the best answer, yet "none of the above" is not among the choices? this type of exam cannot gauge what you know and what you do not know, because sometimes, you studied so hard for the exam you almost lost your sanity but you are faced with confined options. you want to debate to the person who constructed the exam but there's no room for that, not even a chance. so if you flunk, it doesn't mean you're dumb, it only means: WHAT YOU CERTAINLY KNOW IS NOT ON THE CHOICES. but then again, on the brighter side, it helps to have options when you have absolutely no idea about the statement given. tee hee. and hope for God's mercy that the box you have decided to shade after a minute or two of inny-minni-miny-mooing is the right one. chamba, 'ika nga. but the point is you studied, and a mark of "JUST PASSED" is not enough after putting on too much sweat and tears for it.

procrastination

i need to constantly remind myself that:

"PROCRASTINATION IS THE GRAVE WHERE OPPORTUNITY IS BURIED."

our neuro 2 exam will be this wednesday and although there are piles of things to be done (i.e., commed family progress reports, com diag and caduceus), i don't understand why i am so not in the mood for studying when i badly want to have a good mark in this exam. i want to end this sem with a bang, but, darnits! i'm so in a sembreak-mode. can't wait for:
Dan Brown's The Last Symbol (e-book, courtesy of Ate Karla)

Jane Hamilton's A Map of the World

Rebecca Wells' Little Altars Everywhere

..and movies, movies, movies.....
in less than three months, we're saying hello to junior clinical clerkship and i don't feel ready yet. nah! if i could only hold back time.
xoxo