August 30, 2015

China Doll

*I started writing this post on August 28, Friday, and I only get to finish it only now as most of my time is dominated by the little one. 


Our little china doll at 1 week. Her clothes are still loose on her. Haha!
Exactly a week ago, our greatest prayer has been answered. We welcomed our little Amina Mariam via a hilarious/stressful drive to the hospital (next entry!) and an eventful normal delivery. Praise be to God, everything was according to God's perfect plan, from the arrival of my parents and my mother-in-law, to the day I gave birth (which fell on a Friday, an auspicious day among Muslims) and the arrival of our healthy bundle of joy.  

At 1 week old, my baby Yam:

1.) IS ALWAYS HUNGRY. She wakes up every hour or two to feed! I know that newborns are supposed to feed every 3-4 hours in order to gain weight, but our little one seems insatiable! But I don't restrict her on that, I feed her whenever and how much she wants to. I am presently mixed feeding her because my breastmilk didn't came out until the fourth day. My milk production has increased but still not enough for her almost endless appetite! Thank God, my Mom's here to cook almost everything she knows that would trigger milk let-down. I pray that I may have enough milk so I can exclusively breastfeed her.  

2.) LOVES TO CUDDLE. A newborn has only three causes of crying (other than pathological discomfort): wants to feed, wet diaper and wants to cuddle. After feeding and a change of diaper, she won't calm down to sleep until she feels human warmth particularly mine. And I happily succumb to her whims by wrapping her around my arms, close to my chest as she yawns and gently gives in to deep sleep. That's what she loves to do at night, she even wants to hear her Ama (hubby) hum Meranao songs to her while he stands to dance her around. We are not complaining YET of sleepless nights and backaches. Haha! 

3.) HAS FLAKING SKIN AND STILL LOOKS PAYAT. At 2.710kg, her birth weight is just few notches above the normal. She's small. Oh well, she has our genes! Hahaha! I wanna cry when I did her first bathe at home and realized how skinny she is! My Mom tries to console me by assuring me that my child is even bigger than I was when I was born and I did thrive! Haha! She's still shedding her old skin so some part of skin on her legs and her hands are still flaky. 

4.) SMILES A LOOOT!!! I know she can't see us clearly yet and she's just testing her facial muscles but how smitten I am by her cute smile after every feed! Her dimple on her right cheek makes me want to cuddle her even more! I'm sorry, I'm just a new mom who's full of adoration for her newborn daughter. Haha!

5.) CALMS DOWN WHEN A MERANAO SONG IS HUMMED TO HER. On her fourth day of life, she was still crying after feeding and a new diaper, I carried her and swayed her around to no avail. My Mom got her and hummed a Meranao song (bayok) then she was quietly lulled to sleep. Effective! Humming a tune is a talent I am yet to master for my little one, let alone a bayok. My husband, Jabar, impressed me when he puts her to sleep by singing bayok to her. Haha!  

6.) IS SQUIRMY! Oh how she loves to punch the air and kick her tiny legs! That's her way of developing her motor coordination skills so I avoid swaddling her now. 

7.) SHE DUPLICATES MY FAVORITE SLEEPING POSITION. One of my most relaxing sleeping position, aside from lying on my stomach, is lying straight on my back with my hands raised straight above my head. "Superwoman" style. And she does exactly that most of the time. Cute! Because everything she does is cute!

8.) SHE LOOKS LIKE MY MOM! That's exactly what I said when I first saw her in the delivery room. Jabar commented on her chinky eyes while I noticed her round, chubby cheeks which she takes from my Mom (also from me!). Pinaglihi ko 'ata sa nanay ko. I remember missing my Mom and her cooking so much during the first trimester of my pregnancy that I always cry whenever I think about her and my father. I pray she does not only inherit my Mom's physical looks but also her generous heart and her charm. In shaa Allah, ameen!


The first week has been a mix of joy and an excruciating pain for me as my body still aches from pregnancy and labor, plus the anxiety of taking care of a newborn. This is more toxic than a 48-hour duty in the hospital! I swear! Walang postduty na nag-aantay e!  But I am thriving, as much as I want my little one to thrive. I count myself lucky for having my parents and my mother-in-law around during the first week of adjusting into motherhood. I know so little about this business I had to ask them constantly about their child-rearing practices. I am a doctor by profession but motherhood is another one that is completely new to me. I can only apply so little. But in shaa Allah, with the help of family and friends whom I get to keep in touch with online, I will get the hang of this. I pray that I may have more patience and physical endurance as Jabar and I do everything on our own here in Bangkok.    




August 11, 2015

Maternity Shoot

Last Sunday, my husband Jabar gave in to one of my wishes---an outdoors maternity shoot. It was very amateur as we had his sister who's temporarily staying with us to get behind the camera while Jab and I did the directing and, of course, acting! It was also very awkward as it is our first time to do something like this (we previously didn't have a prenup or postnup photo shoots). Hahaha! I'm sharing with you the best shots that we were able to muster. 


I searched the internet for some posing ideas as well as the best location here in Bangkok which turned out to be at the King Rama IX Park the largest green space in the city. 

That ring I was wearing was from my Mom, her own wedding ring that she handed down to me. It used to be very loose on my finger but now, it fits snugly! 


One thing I realized, we should have done this at around 30-33ish weeks AOG when the baby bump is evident but not too huge and the body swelling has not yet materialized. I'm on my 38th week now so aside from the discomfort arising from the heavy bulging of my entire body, there's a threat that I might just contract anytime. Haha! 


I'm really glad that we were able to pull it off even though 1.) we're not still very familiar with our EOS-M Canon (yan na nga lang hirap na ako ano na lang 'pag yung mga highly professional cams? tamad lang talaga akong aralin ang specs nya. lol!) 2.) it was soooo hot! 3.) worst case that can happen in a photo shoot? Run out of battery and having no extra to use!! It happened! So we had very limited shots plus we were in a hurry as the red warning sign blinks. Kaloka! But it was a fun day and I'm grateful that Jabar was cool about it! 


August 6, 2015

From coloring to colorless while waiting outside the doctor's clinic. 📖🏥 #harukimurakami #currentread


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Colors of the World

Seeing some friends and celebrities on Instagram (wish I could say "celebrity friends", haha!) get into adult coloring books as a relaxing hobby brought me back to my kindergarten and gradeschool years when my Mom used to scold me for creating a "bad artwork". I suck at every art class I know. I don't follow the "one-direction stroke" policy in coloring, plus, I was bad at drawing. Unfortunately I didn't know that abstract form of arts do exist so I can use it as a valid excuse. Hehe. I see this now as the reason why I appreciate artists and their works since I am incapable of creating such. I have to admit, I wasn't endowed with that gift.  

A week ago, my OB advised me not to walk around too much since the baby's head has already entered my pelvis (we call it engagement in medical parlance), I did a self-imposed bed rest while also waiting for my parents' arrival. I want them to be here beside me when I give birth. So I thought, aside from reading and watching TV, I can also make use of my time by returning to an unfulfilled childhood accomplishment in the coloring department! Time to redeem myself from the judgment of my own mother! Hah!                          

                           

I went to Siam Paragon and to Emporium to look for a coloring book but to no avail. Thank God for Kinokuniya, they have all kinds of coloring books for adult that came with a morale booster! I picked the Creative Coloring Flowers by Valentina Harpers as flowers seem more relaxing than abstract drawings. 

My first work using colored pencils.
While executing the strokes and making sure that I don't go beyond the lines, I had several stuff play inside my head: 

1.) Those tiny details contribute to the beauty of the whole picture. We always say that little things in life matter, I can't agree more. We always aspire for a better life when we have everything that we want and need staring right at us, we just don't take notice and let them slip by. I am at a point in my life when a single message from any of my siblings and a Facetime conference with my parents are priceless. Then I remember all those mundane things we do at home, those tiny squabbles with my brothers, all those things I used to shrug about defined the kind of family I have. While living here in Bangkok, I want to keep vividly in my mind all the moments I wait for my husband to come home, our daily cooking and coffee bonding sessions, the walk in the park or in the mall..every little thing..because these seemingly mundane daily routine contribute to the beauty of the bigger story. 

2.) With persistence and hardwork, you will come a long way. I have been suffering from pregnancy-related carpal tunnel syndrome for more than a month now, but the numbness of my fingers and the pain on my wrist didn't stop me from pushing the strokes! Haha! Effort much, eh?  


3.) I thought, at my age, coloring would be an easy job. Contrary to it's "relaxing" slogan, selecting colors that blend perfectly with each other and those that in synch with nature would come as a pain in my head. No wonder most artists stereotypically look unkempt. Haha! 

4.) Never underestimate the capacity of anything/anyone. Subdued colors may just perfectly blend into the loud ones, sometimes they are even more noticeable. So stay humble and never look down or step on anyone because you think you are better. Bilog ang mundo, you know. 

"Friends are flowers in the garden of life." SUBSTANTIAL friends, that is. 


I am currently on my fifth coloring artwork. It's fun while I am waiting for the little one's arrival, I am not sure if I can squeeze this in between breastfeeding, changing diapers, cooking and tidying the house. Haha! Good luck to me, then. :) 

July 12, 2015

Nope, I am not anti-politics. I am anti-corrupt/-ion and everything that involves injustice. Those are two different things. 

June 12, 2015

Landap. 💕🇵🇭 #IndependenceDayPH


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June 9, 2015

June 2, 2015

Preggo Woes


Working my butt off in the gym at 27 weeks AOG.
                           

This pregnancy brought out the paranoid person in me. Since this is a planned pregnancy, I took all the necessary precautions as I was anticipating for a possible conception. I was taking folic acid as early as 2 months before I got married (and stopping every time I found out I'm not yet pregnant, haha), got rid of all whitening lotions and creams, finding my way to eat healthily and I took yoga classes when I got here in Bangkok. I was ready to do anything just to have this little muffin. 

One year and nine months of marriage and four unsuccessful attempts later, my pregnancy sets in however it is accompanied by a hullabaloo of negative scenarios such as abortion. As much as we want to share the good news to everyone, I asked the husband to keep it to ourselves for the mean time as I was afraid I might only disappoint our loved ones if I lost the embryo. But our little secret didn't last a week as he was super excited to break it to our immediate family members. We implore them to pray for a successful and healthy pregnancy and baby.

At 27 weeks as of writing, the last week of my second trimester, I am beyond grateful that everything went smoothly since day one. I suffered the usual 1st-tri distress of headache, nausea and fatigue on an almost daily basis for almost three months. Adding to that is the contrasting hunger pangs and lack of appetite. I mainly craved for Maranao food particularly my Mom's cooking but since it's out of my reach, I can only be patient with whatever in store for me here. I didn't want to make my pregnancy a burden to my husband, I am lucky enough that he frequently brings me anything I might want to eat but my taste buds seemed to have been numb during those days. So unlikely of me. I am quite lucky to be not working while pregnant because I can just lie down at home whenever I feel nauseous (I haven't experienced vomiting, lucky me), I can only imagine those mothers or mothers-to-be who are enduring all the discomfort in the middle of work.  

My baby bump says hello! :)

On the second trimester, the discomfort gradually disappeared but my appetite came back not without a fierce revenge! I eat almost every 2-hours that my taste buds seem to be very accommodating to whatever you shove in my mouth! Consequently, I gained quite a lot of weight, some few pounds in excess of what I am supposed to gain at this stage of pregnancy. I try to eat healthily, meaning totally cutting out caffeine and soda drinks, more on dairy products, fresh vegetable and fruits, fish and meat, rice and bread. I try to strike a balance with the nutrients that my baby and I need without gaining too much weight, but I guess I can't help to eat more than what is required. Well, I'll deal with that post-delivery. Haha!

As I am gearing towards the third and final trimester, some of the physical discomforts are slowly coming back. I suffer from pregnancy insomnia, difficulty of breathing when lying flat on my back, allergic rhinitis attacks, the creepy-crawly sensation on my legs whenever I lie down to relax which urges me to frequently move my legs (restless leg syndrome), and my appetite is no way going downhill. My baby kicks very strongly and frequently nowadays that sometimes she's giving me a hard time to sleep. With all of these, never did I complain. I embrace all these distress and consider it as a blessing. With all the pessimistic scenarios brewing in my head during the first trimester, I am so grateful that my baby and I have reached this far. In few months' time, I will cradle my beautiful daughter in my arms and shower her with all the love in this world, in shaa Allah. I always caught myself daydreaming about her and our future conversations. The husband and I are so blessed beyond words.  

Confirming the truth of what other mothers say, it is during one's pregnancy that one realizes to appreciate our very own mothers. Being a firstborn, I constantly think that all the excitement stirring inside me must be the exact same feeling that my Mom had when she was pregnant of me. My Mom was even working so I can only imagine what she went through for the six of us, most especially when she was pregnant with my triplet siblings! OMG. True enough, no matter what we do for them, we cannot repay all the hardships that our mothers have endured to bring us out into this world and eventually in raising us to be morally upright people.

My parents are coming over here in Bangkok in two days' time, I am so excited to tell them my pregnancy story.  I cannot wait to hug my Mom so tightly and THANK her for everything she's done for me and my siblings. Friends, while we still have our mothers with us in this world, let us not waste a single opportunity to give them joy and happiness. In shaa Allah. :)

Lakbayan C+



Lakbayan upgraded me from D to C+! Haha! Most of my travel opportunities were attributed to medical missions during my DTTB stint which brought me to Davao Oriental (Typhoon Pablo), Leyte and Samar (Typhoon Yolanda), Zamboanga Peninsula (Zamboanga seige), and seminars in General Santos and Davao City. I hope I can visit a lot more places all over the country when I get back, doesn't matter if it is for work or plain leisure and I will definitely tag the little one wherever we go. Hihi. On top of my Philippine travel bucket list include: Ilocos Norte, Ilocos Sur, Surigao del Sur, and Negros Occidental.  In shaa Allah.  

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May 24, 2015

Robinhood

                        


I was browsing books at Kinokuniya earlier when I chanced upon this quote and suddenly, a part of my DTTB (Doctors to the Barrios) experiences came in a flash. At the time, I had a grasp at how politics is being played not only in my home province but in the whole country as well. I was able to answer some questions on the root cause of our country's corruption and consequent poverty. I found out that it is a mutual give-and-take relationship between the elected leaders and the voters. 

I remember one afternoon when I was backriding a motorcycle driven by a barangay captain in the municipality I served, we were on our way to his barangay to see a patient. Our ride was relatively smooth, thanks to the tire paths (see photo below) carpeting the narrow barrio roads. The captain was telling me how grateful he is to the local chief executive for constructing those tire paths making the transportation to and fro the far-flung barangay easier for his constituents. 

TIRE PATHS. Basically, two narrow concrete roads constructed to fit only the tires of vehicles. This is one of the PAMANA projects of the DSWD. I took this photo when my staff and I were on a convoy to one of the barangays. 

As far as I know, all the developments in that municipality, including the tire paths, are government projects through different agencies such as the DSWD, DA, DILG and DOH. None comes from the personal budget of the local chief executive. And yet, the community people think of it as personal projects of the LCE. I do not undermine the gratitude of the community people, of course we have to consider that without the consent and cooperation of the LCE, none of those projects would materialize. When I was there, I was also beyond grateful for the warm welcome and the kindness that the LCE and his family have shown me and my staff. But I also believe that they should not entirely own up to the developments, in fact, it is something that they OWE to their constituents, and the latter must also understand that being taxpayers (well, only a handful of them) they deserve each and every project in the municipality that alleviates their living condition such as concrete roads (which they majorly lack), educational reinforcement, agricultural/livelihood help, and health support and monitoring.

I have observed that, generally, in the fifth/sixth municipalities (poorest of the poor), most of the constituents rely solely (or shall I say, beg?) from the local chief executive. This starts during the election period where vote buying is not a secret to keep in our country. It is illegal but majority does it. We live in an era where a "clean intention to serve" neither qualifications matter. Money matters. This is where the give-and-take relationship I mentioned starts. The higher amount you give to the voters, the more chance you will get of being elected to the position you're vying. After election, the politician's financial resources is depleted and he now relies on the IRA and other government projects to "save up" again for the next election. Infrastructure and other major developments are compromised in this practice. Since services lack in the municipality, the constituents practically beg to the LCE for personal financial help. This is where the feeling of "helping the people" commences, and the constituents are largely "grateful" to the LCE for the help extended to them. Robinhood, eh?     

Basically, our nation's problem in corruption and poverty is a two-way process. We cannot isolate the politicians as blameworthy, if we have accepted their money when we voted for them, then we are their accomplices. We chose them, therefore, we must endure.

As the national elections come to a close, I fervently pray to God for enlightenment as we vote for those who are capable of leading us to progress and prosperity sans the sugar-coated words and "charitable deeds" while obviously stealing from the taxpayers' money for his personal gain. May God spare us from hypocrisy and following blindly. Ameen.